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[lucifermourning]

classes have begun.

so far, so good. mostly. pilates is lovely and destressing. astronomoy will be mad easy and the prof is totally hyperactive so i might even stay awake. is especially good because he bases his grading on the understanding that no one in the class is a science major and we all just need to fulfill our science requirements. ergo should be able to do well with little difficulty.

intermediate poetry 1 is a bit terrifying. i think the professor was kind of deliberately trying to terrify. but getting asked 'why poetry' and having to admit that i'm a fiction writer is unnerving. basically seems like it'll be a cool class, but probably tough. meep! i haven't written poetry in over 2 years so this should be interesting.

in other news my roommate showed up yesterday and we rearranged the room and now i have a little nest. my desk and bed take up most of my space and the bed's placed between the desk and a big tapestry so all the pillows on one side of the bed make it very comfy and small and kinda nest like. this pleases me immensely. and crystal got the window and put her desk in the livingroom so her space is all open and preventing of claustrophobia. so both of us are pleased with these arrangements. and all is well.

the only really un-good thing was (is) that i'm having panics about scholarship applications. having difficulty facing the concept that i might actually fail at something academic and i keep wondering if i'm wasting my time even trying. and i'm not organized like i should be. and it was really good the scholarship advisor had someone else coming in so i had to go and didn't have my panic attack in his office. must calm down, pull self together and revise essay so i can meet again tomorrow. and submit everything on friday.

and i have rehearsal tonight.

clearly sleep is optional.

Comments

[urizen.livejournal.com]

*loving slap*

Pull yourself together girl!

*braces for the backlash*

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

::pounce::

but i am feeling better today. i think wibbling helped. for the moment. also, i did more revising of essay thing. can make it work. maybe. shall see.

[urizen.livejournal.com]

Coherent as ever, my dear.

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

i feel that you are mocking me.

i am hurt deep in my heart.

[urizen.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're really hurt. I think you're mocking my mocking.

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

you can think whatever you want.

i will respect your right to be wrong.

[urizen.livejournal.com]

Now you're DEFINITELY mocking me.

:(

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

but only in a friendly way.

besides, americans don't really understand sarcasm and i have to mock somebody.

[urizen.livejournal.com]

Yes... but knowing that doesn't make the pain any less.

*sniff*

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

i wasn't trying to. decreasing your suffering would decrease my entertainment.

[urizen.livejournal.com]

You heartless swine!

And after I've been so insultingly supportive...

[izzy-stradlin.livejournal.com]

mew! hey......my university applications are going really weird...so i'm confused as hell! you get to do astronomy...wish i did
*hugs*

[lucifermourning.livejournal.com]

weird? hmm. hopefully this is (or will become) weird in a good way.

that's the joy of american universities. we take courses in lots of different subject areas. whether we want to or not.

future doesn't scare me at all

[grey-damaskena.livejournal.com]

Deep breaths, dearling. You're going to do fine. It's not a waste of time, it's a neccessary step. But only a step. Steps aren't worth stressing out about.