rabbit hole day

for those who haven't heard

i knew immediately upon waking that today was Today.

i had been waiting for that through a long series of disappointments, each leaving me with only the hope that the next day might be Tomorrow.

processed the normal routine anyway. not sure how to react.

i think the actuality of Today has only heigtened the anticipation.

everything has grown strong--the colors, smells, scents, sounds, textures. they're starting to merge too, so i almost caught the scent of purple when i got dressed this morning.

it's so close.

it's strange to watch everything, knowing what's to come. maybe that's why my senses are receiving so much more. maybe it's not real at all, just a way of preserving everything that Was. or Is. not Was yet.

the flickerings are getting stronger too, as all the simple things start dissolving inside out. the objects don't know, so they're fighting it.

some people will probably fight it too.

i can only hope i'll face it with my anticiated courage.

after all, i have no fear of the Judge.