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i am so very tired.
but soon it will be friday and then i will go to nonclave.
for which i feel entirely unprepared.
as people seem to be making plans and plotting and such. whilst i am pretty much just going to show up (after fighting lots of traffic, i imagine--horrors of labor day weekend!) and hope to find space left in a cabin. preferably one containing people i know. ::fears:: is that something folks generally try to organize before hand?
i don't know.
i feel woefully out of the loop up here.
actually, way too much of this summer has felt like that. not in the loop anywhere. just waiting to be somewhere.
feh.
soon i will go to england, and there will be shiny classes to make my brain work and shiny people.
assuming i sort out this loan thing. will they contact me? should i poke them? i don't know at all.
i need sleep.
but, despite anxieties, at least i will be gaming this weekend. and this pleases me. maybe i can find more philosophical discussions to engage in.